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Hi everyone!

I believe its time to post something new.  Instead of something old.

Life has continued to move forward, It is strange how that works but day in and day out. Forward.
If you ever find life moving backwards, you are probably just standing on a machine that is moving backwards. Mentally you can only move forward (according to time and such)  So if you are feeling down because you think you are heading back to where you started, think again.
It may be the same starting point - But it sure isn't the same beginning.

ok go!

Because when you stop dreaming it's time to die

Why write anything at all? Ever?

Because sometimes the things you do help validate your existence.  It's hard to compete in a world driven by competition and comparisons.   

But you can and shouldn't ever give up.  Why?  Because that defeats the point of living.  Why do anything? Because it helps you find YOU.  Maybe you don't need to be found and maybe everything is peachy keen, if that's the case... then this isn't for you.

Love.  Give or take. What's your preference?  Be careful what you choose because someone will jump on the opportunity to do the opposite.  Not because they want to see the world burn, but because some people need to feel that validation only given by others.  Or they simply care about others wellbeing.
You still with me?
Let me break it down for you.

If you lived only by yourself with no interaction or knowledge of anyone else.  Would you be the same person? It's doubtful.  But enter human interaction and we start to learn not just about other people, but everything about ourselves.
So who is right in seeking love and when is giving love appropriate?  You should always give more than you can take.. in everything you do.
So when does this emotion we refer to as love enter the picture? That's the ultimate question.  How and when do we know we are in love?
When it just feels right.  And that's the scientific answer!  (but not really and I am not a doctor of any kind)

So what can I do to feel right when all I seem to do is feel wrong?  Take the time to see what's bothering your emotions and think about it.
I am writing this because a friend of mine is stuck perhaps in some self loathing.  How does she deal with it?  By convincing herself that others are the only people who can make her feel "right"
You can not and will not EVER feel "right" unless you love the only person that can truly know the real you.
YOU.
Ask yourself if you have been in that situation.  Totally immersed in someone else with no thought of your well being.  6 billion people on this planet and you think you cant live without one of them?  Maybe not for a while. .. maybe that time spend together will stick with you and the pain of loss will win... but not forever.  So take a step back and look away to the sky.

I heard some great advice years back and it goes a little something like this "You can not be in a relationship unless you can be completely independent"
That's some great advice.

If you find yourself wondering what is missing.  It's usually you.

When life gives you lemons, You'll probably get robbed.

And I quote
"In a Cleveland suburb earlier this month, kids operating a lemonade stand were threatened and robbed by a group of teenagers, according to the Miami Herald.
The thieves approached the stand in a rusty car and threatened to beat up the lemonade-sellers if they didn't hand over the cash, 11-year-old Omar Schpeb said in the article.
The kids wisely handed over the $13.50 they earned selling lemonade; later, an anonymous donor gave the police station $20 to recoup the kids' losses. "

When all you can smell is taste

Oh, grammar is important. I forgot!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!!?!?!?
Sure coldplay have a lot of money and popularity...
I don't have an issue with coldplay's music.  I just think it's a stupid name. Hotstop is obviously much cooler but wouldn't fit the music brand.

I recently read an article.

believe it. All of it. Whatever it is to you.

You wouldn't have so many viruses if you paid for porn. Now you know.

The curses of the yesteryear.

I'm not as broken as I was once.  Still broke.  But not as broken.

This life will be the death of me.

From now on I will refer to blog posting as dropping a log.

I recently made the trip to MTL, prior to my arrival in MTL, I decided to stop by TO.  It was here I met a nice fellow. We shall call him.... "stardust"
Stardust told me that creative art and expression usually stems from depression and is often the cure to the current state of mind.  "you feel depressed.. you create something to feel better"  This got me thinking.
If stardust is saying this and he believes it... Then he probably isn't the only one who does.
So there are artists who self medicate by creating art.
Alright, nice.
But then I got to thinking.... are they expressing the depression they feel? Perhaps they are taking the depression and some how physically moving it onto another medium? Or is it the cure they have created and wish to share?

I think depression exists in everyone, but for today we are going to call it "evil"  Simply for arguments sake and because I like to relate things back to religion.
So this "evil" may lay dormant in some, and may thrive in others.  But it exists in us all.
You are happy, you are sad.  where is the middle ground and how much of each do we need?
If you are too happy, are you insane? is it a disease?
If you are too sad... it certainly is a problem, I am not going to argue that.
I'd rather see you smile, It lights up the room.
Guess it all comes down to your capability to fix that in which seems broken.  Pick yourself up when you are down etc...  Or take meds.....

If creating art can help battle this state of mind. Great!
But what if the art created is depression incarnate...

Is art the cure?  Or the disease replicating into our souls through our eyes and ears, infecting us and destroying the only hope we have left?
No.  That's just crazy talk. 

Art is perception.  And I hope it makes you smile, cry and sleep.

What does art mean to you?
If you don't know. Find out.  At least do so before you're dead.



Uh yeah, and stop searching for meaning in everything.  Share your knowledge instead.

It's almost time for dinner, get your shoes on

I'm not about to get into family values, not today. (even though I am touching on the subject)

The family is yours to call your own.  

I don't want to start on how this planet is becoming more and more detached from one another.  Maybe another time....  Negativity breeds negativity. 

I have been told my whole life that everything happens for a reason.  Then why are you reading this?

Sure everything happens for a reason,  But that doesn't mean it should.  Unless it's convenient of course.  

Let's surf the internet and find 4,452,039 people complaining about the state of the world and doing nothing more than maybe a few drugs to make it seem clearer.  

I just read some 24 year old's rant of facebook about how the world has it all wrong.

Shut up.  

On a fresher note:

Oslo (Norway) has an impressively hi-tech, futuristic approach to garbage disposal. The homes of many residents are connected to a system of underground pneumatic pipes that simply suck away domestic garbage. Oslo has also abolished landfill sites, instead turning the energy generated from incinerating city-centre garbage into electricity and heating for locals.

!!!!!WOW!!!!!

 

picture of the wednesday

Everything is available to those who wish to find it. Everything else is just that.

Yeah, so it's been a while. But only to those who aren't in a coma.

The idea of a blog is still running through my brain like a log on a river that has dried up many years ago.  It's stuck.
I would like to write more and more often - but it seems I would also need to advertise myself to get people to read it.  I've never been a fan of selling in general.

I do my best to write that which is of interest, not just to me but hopefully to you too.  Why? because I'm not selfish.
I don't think you are a retard. In fact you are retarded if you think I do.

Yes, you are evil?

We all meet people in our lives. If we didn't, well... we probably would have a hard time understanding the ideas and notions behind perception of self. 

Each and every person we meet effects and affects us in every way possible. If they didn't, I't wouldn't be possible.  That's why it's possible in every way.  

So how much do we learn about ourselves from other people? I think it's impossible to tell. But we must be shaped in some way by our surroundings. 

And if in some way we are shaped by that which is around us, are we than good or evil because of it?

Pedestrian X had this to say on the matter.

"Does someone have to practice evil to be evil? And if so, do they practice on themselves?" 

Quote of the Monday:  Don't put food on someone else's plate, they may already be full.

**who is Pedestrian X? - Pedestrian X is a friend, a friend that you all know and love. The one person in your life that will follow you when you've passed away. The one person who will be there long after you are gone.  The follower of your soul, the centre of your soul, your nemesis and lover. 

Call of Duty Black Ops First Strike Map pack Region EXPLOSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so lets go a little nerdy today.  For those of you who do not know what Call of Duty is... Stop playing WoW and turn on an xbox or ps3.  Oh what's that?!?! you dont play video games... that's cool, but you might want to get some friends. Chances are someone you know is playing call of duty... right now.


Plain and simple. Call of Duty is the biggest money maker on the planet in terms of video games sales.  Now how does Activision (the owner of the franchise) reward it's players with the newest map pack addition...
By only allowing them to download in the same region and your gamer ID is registered!

"This content is not available for your region"

So to all those wonderful souls fighting for their country overseas... you suck and we dont care about you.
who are "we" "We" are Activision, the company behind region locking your download content.  Why? because we don't make enough money as it is and we want to ensure that we capitalize on everyone.  What's that? you have a canadian account with 29837492387947823 MS points on it, you've already spend money to buy the map pack?  You are not living in Canada at the moment?... oh well... you suck and we dont care about you.
In short - If you are from a country that you are not currently living in, and created an xbox live account in your home country. You can't download the map pack.  So if you are a soldier fighting overseas and you like to play call of duty.. no new map pack for you.
If you like to buy points from retailers overseas... no map pack for you. (you know that's not legit and you can't really be THAT upset that microsoft inst letting you download it)
If you have moved for school... no map pack for you.
If you have moved because of work... no map pack for you.
If you transferred your account to where you live now... no map pack for you.
If you have no fingers and hate call of duty and never wanted to play anyway... no map pack for you.

So what's the only "solution"
Make a NEW account in the country you are in. Buy ANOTHER/MORE ms points and download to that account. Then the DL content will be available for anyone to use on that machine.

Great, So you have to create an account to which no one will ever use and RE-PURCHASE points so that you can use a map pack that you couldnt download because you were not in the country in which you registered your initial gamer ID.
Makes perfect sense to me.
So what if i want to delete that account because I never use it. Content lost.
All of this... for a map pack?!?!?

And if you live in a country not listed here http://www.xbox.com/en-us/live/countries Don't even try to download it.  

Our reader Dawn has mentioned: 

- "(you may be able to access xBox live there, but you'll get no support)... You can buy it, but not download it.

A map pack for the highest grossing game series of all time.  And what's activision's excuse... "legal reasons"
Nice one Activision. Nice one indeed.

It's a flippin video game.

Who inventend Friday anyway?

Picture of the day.

the sky is falling.

In recent news.

Hundreds of birds fall from the sky.  Lets look into it. 

***CHICAGO (Reuters) - The deaths of 200 starlings in Yankton, South Dakota this week is no mystery -- they died as the result of poison set out by the U.S. Department of Agriculture, an official said on Thursday.
USDA wildlife biologist Ricky Woods explained that a large group of starlings was causing problems in a north Nebraska cattle feedlot, eating the feed and leaving waste on both the feed and equipment. So the USDA put out DRC 1339 poison for the birds, Woods said.***

So "the USDA put out DRC 1339 poison for the birds" Oh, Mystery solved! Good thing the birds didnt die because the government put poison into the air..... wait a minute...
What about the birds in Arkansas? Any update on that? "Wildlife experts determined that those birds died as a result of being startled by New Year's Eve fireworks, ......and then flying into buildings and trees." Good thing no one other than Beebe, Arkansas celebrated new years or all the birds in the world would of died!!!! 

My ex had this to say about it all...

birds get tired. It's pretttty clear that they were EXHAUSTED and fell from the sky because they didn't take enough breaks. Mystery solved. Geez. No...don't bother looking into it anymore. I have solved the mystery.
2,000,000 Dead Fish Wash Up in Chesapeake...
40,000 Crabs Wash Ashore in Kent...
100 Tons of Fish Dead in Brazil...
500 dead penguins have washed up on beaches in the Sao Paolo state of Brazil (normally only 10 each year are found, but whatever)
...Obviously it's pretty tough being an animal. You migrate, you get tired and die. En masse.
except for the 1000+ turtledoves that died in Italy; they died from "indigestion".

It all seems a little fishy to me.. pun intended.  I am not here to tell you that the world is ending, There is enough fear mongering on this planet as it is.  I do however wonder why all of this is happening at once. 

It could be 2012, Al Gore or the Iranian Government.  Personally I don't care.

Either way you slice it.  It's f'd.

The first blog of all time. At least for this blogless soul.

There comes a time in everyone's life when you realize that your grammar isnt all that great.  Your friends are nothing more than a fading memory and your loved ones are simply too far and few in-between.

Enter the journey for more.  Some call it "self reflection", some call it "mid-life crisis" Some even go as far to call it "shut the hell up, no one cares what you think"
Me however, I like to call it a blog.

Here's mine.